Monday, May 27, 2013

I'm in a Fight, Not Physical...

Wow! A year has past since my last post! I knew it had been a while, but WHAT A YEAR!!! We did loose our sweet baby January 25, 2012. But January 2, 2013, God blessed us with precious William Jacob! At 10 pounds and breech, believe me, he made quite an entrance to the world. (Thank you Jesus for c-sections!)

So, of course, after 2 pregnancies in the the past 14 months, those creeping pounds have found their way back on my hips (and thighs...and belly....etc). My battle is starting over. I reached my goal weight in 2011. I was running several miles a day and eating great. But the weight found is way back. I thought loosing something would make it disappear. I know if I loose something in my car, it's gone forever...why not weight???
Now, here I go again, working on loosing the weight I have packed on. I can't blame anyone but myself. I am the one who gave up healthy eating for pleasures of junk. (Did I mention I love candy? and chips? and Mexican food?)
This morning I began again. I hit the pavement. It felt awesome to run again. No, I didn't run the whole route but I tried. I had a total of 2.6 miles this morning.That was walking and running. As I listened to my i-pod, I heard a song that is very familiar to me. The first line says "I'm in a fight, not physical. I'm in a war, but not with this world." I gotta tell you, I began to have worship right on the street! I was reminded of this blog and words I'd posted in the past. My "fight" is with food and my weight, but it's not a physical battle. For me, my battle with food is a spiritual battle. Just as Paul spoke of a "thorn in his flesh", junk food battles are a thorn in mine.

No matter what your "thorn" may be, it is a spiritual battle to fight each day. But the song continues (and for me, this was when my worship got good):
Joy unspeakable that won't go away
And just enough strength
To live for today
So I never have to worry
What tomorrow will bring
'Cause my faith is on solid rock
I am counting on God

I am counting on
I am counting on God

The miracle of Christ in me
Is the mystery that sets me free
I'm nothing like I used to be
Open up your eyes you'll see

I love the bridge! "I'm nothing like I used to be". I want to see that change and be "nothing like I used to be". Not just physically but mentally and spiritually. I know when I run and need God's strength for my spiritual battles, I am drawn closer to Him. 

I am grateful for those who encourage one another in the journey. I have had so much encouragement from a special group of bloggers, The Middle Sisters. They blog on being in the "middle" of journeys. Their blog has really encouraged me, especially when they blog on their "reduction challenge". Thank you, Middle Sisters! (BTW, if you haven't checked them out or liked them on Facebook, you need to! and

Next challenge for me: a half-marathon maybe?

...To be continued...